I shouldn’t have to entertain everyone who’s intrested in me.
I’m allowed to have a type and a standard.
I hate when someone likes me and I feel like I need an excuse for i don’t like them back.
Like with Christian.
I let him kiss me because I felt I didn’t have a good excuse for not letting him.
I want a click.
I want someone to look at me and think I’m wonderful.
There’s nothing wrong with two people thinking the others wonderful.
I should have to compromise that.
I know I’m not the most beautiful or the most smart.
I don’t have my shit together
And I can be overly opinionated.
I get it, I’m just sorta average
But to Christian I wasn’t average.
I think that’s why I want him as a friend. Cause he sees me.
He sees something there.
I don’t want to loose that.
I don’t want to ruin a good impression with kisses and titles.
It almost feels like if someone likes me too much I don’t want to screw that up for myself.
I’m not sure what my point is anymore so I guess I’ll just stop talking